That’s it I’m done,
Fuck it demon, you’ve won.
Take me then, I won’t put up a fight,
I’m tired now so shut off the light.
Time to sleep and not awake,
I understand, know what’s at stake.
I’ll leave this place, loved ones and friends,
Please forgive me, I can’t make amends.
Please don’t think bad,
Even though you’re sad.
You couldn’t have done more,
I know the score.
Know what it would mean,
Knew I wouldn’t be seen.
Understand I’m at rest,
You all did your best.
It’s me who let go,
I just didn’t know.
If I could take anymore,
The pain, it was sore.
Never feeling enough,
Constantly trying to bluff.
To pretend I was ok,
Repeat day after day.
Didn’t want your concern,
Didn’t want you to learn.
How I felt about me,
What I could see.
A man without much to give,
A man who didn’t want to live.
Not the courage to try,
Constantly breakdown and cry.
Such a sensitive soul,
Eventually it took its toll.
Please forgive me if you can,
I was just a broken man.
Pem x